Today is unreal. I am not in the best of moods today but then when am I ever happy. I can't recall the last time I was ever happy
or expressed any form of happiness with my life.

I got into an argument with my best friend the other day. I am really concerned about him. He seems depressed and I worry about him a lot. He has been losing a lot of weight and I don't know what to do about it? Although he is 21 years old he tells me that his parents are controlling his life. I am not from the same culture as his so I just listen I don't want to jump to any conclusions. All I know is that he is not eating and he is losing weight rapidly. He is 5'9 and he weighs only 129 pounds. It doesn't seem right what he is doing to himself. He tells me that he is on anti depressants but they are not working. I don't know what to do? I can't seem to connect with him anymore there is a distance between us. I try to listen but I don't know if that is doing any good. The best thing I can do is listen then at least he can vent his anger out to someone.

Have you ever wondered why do we exist? Often I do and it disturbs me. Perhaps because I am an immature person, perhaps because I haven't grasped the fact that I will die one day. I sometimes think I am the only one that freaked out now that is the year 2001. Where will I be when I am dead? I don't know. I feel everyday I am just getting older and older. I will be 25 years old on September 26th but I certainly don't act like a mid twenty something. My gosh 25 i am almost years old. .